Tuesday, November 6, 2012

On a Serious Note..



I lost my grandma in February of this year.
With the holidays coming up, I am thinking about her more and more.
I have yet to really deal with losing her.
I think about her all of the time.
But it doesnt really sink in that she's gone.
It just feels like I haven't seen her for a while.

Sometimes I look at her pictures and I have to remind myself that she's really gone.
It's hard.

This will be our first Thanksgiving without her.
Out first Christmas without her.
Her birthday was on Christmas.

She was such a stubborn woman, too.
You never had to wonder what she was thinking.
She was such a gossip, we all knew it and she knew we knew it.
It was so funny, she never left the house but she always knew what was going on.

I miss her.
I didn't cherish my time with her the way I should have.
I let her get on my nerves sometimes.
I regret that.

But towards the end, I had wonderful conversations with her.
She knew where she was going and she told me she wasn't scared.
I find comfort in that.

It's taken me a long time to be able to write about her.
But I feel like this is what is going to help in my healing process.
I love and miss you, Nanny. <3


All My Love,
Lyndsay





18 comments:

  1. You're grandma looks so nice. I know this feeling to lose a person.
    http://allnightlong-sophie.blogspot.de/

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    1. Thank you, she was and would do anything for anyone. :)

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  2. Writing about your grandma is such a lovely tribute to her and your relationship.

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  3. Sharing your love for your grandma is a beautiful tribute to her. She is listening to your kind message.

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  4. Thank you for being so open with us. It sounds like your granny was an awesome lady. Her memory will continue to live on and please know that some of her is living in you as well!

    -Karen
    www.yourstylistkaren.com

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    1. She was pretty awesome, thank you for being so sweet :)

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  5. I'm stopping by after seeing your blog link in a comment previous to mine :) We have similar blog names and I was curious!

    I thought I would leave a comment as well. It has been 9 days since my Nanny passed away suddenly. It is one of the most difficult things I've ever had to experience.

    I'm glad you are able to talk more about her. I think it helps. My Nanny's Birthday is boxing day. There is a lot of similarities between them as well.

    Take Care.

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    1. I'm very sorry for your loss. :( if you ever need to talk I'm here to listen <3

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  6. Hi Lyndsay,

    I'm so sorry about you losing your grandma. I want to give you a virtual hug. I lost my grandmother a couple of days before my birthday and we were very close. I actually spent my birthday on a plane ride home after her funeral. I am glad that you are able to share this post with us. It's humbling to read.

    Karina

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    1. I'm virtually hugging you back, thank you for your kind words. I know your grandma was with you on your birthday even though you were on a plane, she was watching over you. :)

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  7. I am so sorry about your grandma. I truly understand. She will continue to live in your memories and your heart.


    I found your blog through the hop and am glad I did.

    Jill @ And Life Goes On...

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    1. Thank you so much :) I'm going to check your blog out too!

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  8. oh gosh, im so so sorry about your grandma. i lost my grandma last october and i am still grieving. its been really tough to lose her because she was my last grandparent and we were extremely close. i found you on thumping thursdays and so glad i did, im sure sorry and i understand when you say that you wish you would have cherished your time more with her. i felt that as well but i have come to know that she cherished her time with me and i will do the same with my grandkids.
    come see me sometime and have a great day!
    www.kendrakaypahukoa.blogspot.com

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    1. I'm sorry to hear of your loss also. Everyone's kinds words has really helped. Thank you so much for your comment and I checked out your blog and love it. I'm following :)

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  9. So sorry for your loss, but so proud that you're talking about it. I hold things in too and at the end of the day, letting them out is always helpful. I'm just too stubborn to do what I know I should until I can't hold it in any longer. She would be proud of you.. always remember that!

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    1. I'm stubborn too, thank you for reminding me she would be proud of me because I think that's very trueand forget it sometimes, :)

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